Recently, a reader who got the Vajrapani Ruel(1) got in touch with me again. I was actually surprised to receive her call because since she got the Vajrapani Ruel(2) she never got in touch with me again, except for one time that she told me that the Vajrapani Ruel(3) is working for her. When I asked for the detail of her story and also if it was possible for her to write about it, she just ignored my messages. I did try to call her back but she didn’t answer my calls neither she answered my messages.
And so, I was surprised that she called me a few days ago (the time of writing is most likely different from the time of posting) to inquire about my welfare. But amidst the hi(s) and hellos I knew that she wanted to talk to me about something. So I told her my observation and said that I feel she wants to talk to me about something but that she may be uncomfortable about it.
Because of that prompting on my part she started to open up, but she has a lot of preamble before she got to the point, and so I had to be patient with her also and I simply had to let her talk.
According to Celia, the Vajrapani Ruel(4) indeed worked for her, and she has now a better life. But somehow, she seems quite unhappy.
Celia, requested for the Vajrapani Ruel(5) because her husband left her, and her in – laws who has never liked her are quite happy about it and they never hid the fact. Their two children also went to live her in – laws while her husband went abroad. Since she has gotten married she has never worked and so she finds it really difficult to start anew.
It was thru her mother who follows and regularly reads my blog that she found out about the Vajrapani Ruel(6). And so she decided to take the risk and invest on the Vajrapani Ruel(7). Celia shares that indeed the Vajrapani Ruel(8) worked for her, and chanting Bodhisattva Vajrapani’s mantra – OM VAJRAPANI HUM – did worked for her. Her children are now back with her, and she now has her own small business. After working for 6 months for a company of a friend, she was given a chance to open her own business and so she claims that it was obviously because of the Vajrapani Ruel(9) that she got all these things in order in such a short time.
However, there is one concern, she feels that her happiness is not complete. She said while she is happy that there is a reversal in her luck, she feels cheated that her ex-husband and his now live – in partner seems to be quite happy and doing well also despite of the things that they did to her. And she wonders why one of her wishes has not come to fruition and that is that her husband will leave his live – in partner.
After listening to him, I asked him whether she sincerely still wants her husband back, she initially said yes, and clarified that for the sake of her kids they have to be whole again. However, after much discussion, it was clear that she just wants her husband back to revalidate herself and to spite the other woman and her in – laws who has always seems to have a strong dislike for her.
She then asked me as to what negative karma she has that she seems unable to forgive her ex-husband and his live – in partner. I don’t have answer to this question, and called up my Guru Lama about this. Guru Lama then clarified, her anger is not creating negative karma, it is her anger that is her negative karma.
Isn’t this true not just for her but for everybody? No amulets can make us happy if we continue to harbor anger, envy, and bitterness in our hearts. Whether these feelings create negative karma or not for us depends on how we act on these emotions. However, it is obvious that these emotions are some sort of negative karma because as long as we harbor them we can never truly be happy. So I suggest that once we have these feelings we must immediately deal with it and expunge it from our life.
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