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Separated for 17 Years Brought Together By the Power of the Traditional Sutra Amulet: A Personal Testimony of A Person Who Has No Idea of What Buddhism or Feng Shui Is All About and a Little of My Personal Musings.

Published Setyembre 25, 2017 by jptan2012

For the past few days I was quite down physically, emotionally, and psychologically. The past few weeks has been quite challenging because three different groups have been consulting me about the same matter, and initially I wasn’t sure that they were all related then in the process I realized these groups were consulting about the same matter. They’re all in three different sides, well technically speaking, but the other two are on the same side, one on a personal level and the other one on a macro perspective. This has taken a toll on me both physically because meeting them is a tedious thing, psychologically because a lot of what was happening between them involves a lot of psychological warfare and deception, and emotionally because somehow one can’t get involve and become friends to some of them and of course one worries also especially if the reading or analysis of the chart shows something that is not nice.

Then a reader sent me a message who recently bumped into an employee of a professional Feng Shui consultant. And because my reader used to be a valued customer of the said Feng Shui consultant, the employee told her that his boss is really angry with me and blames me for the closing or downsizing of the Feng Shui stores in the Philippines. The employee further told my reader that it seems like it has become a personal mission of this Feng Shui consultant to malign me and bad mouth me in any possible way. And why is he sharing this with her, because he is looking for a job and wanted to work for my reader, so I think I will give the whole story some leeway for an exaggeration but still these things does get into you.Emily SMS

On top of that, another valued reader and friend for some reason stumbled into an issue and somewhat felt a little aloof. Of course, people surrounding him who doesn’t know him will be quick to judge, I’m just thankful that at the end all the positive things that happened prevailed for him to know and accept the truth. On top of that there was some sort of a miscommunication with a reader from Australia.

You see all these things sort of got to me and for a while I was thinking whether I should still continue writing or not. I have already written more than 800 articles, and even before I sort of feel that I might have written enough. So I thought I’d stop already or maybe stop on my 1,000th article.

Then I get another miracle and it all becomes clear again why I continue to write, despite of the anger of some people who are against these things, despite the attacks of some bashers, despite of some of my own shortcomings, I continue to write because of the miracles of the people who continue to believe and who continue to hope for miracles.

This particular miracle got to me because the persons involved waited for 17 years for it to happen.

Ben is an Uber driver. I met him October last year (that’s according to Ben) when my own driver was absent and I had to take Uber and we got into talking in the car because of a heavy traffic. I was with a friend at that time when Ben casually told us his story.

Ben is a single father of two. He lives on his own because his ex-wife is with their only daughter in Canada. His daughter, who happens to be his eldest, is now 25 years of age. My friend and I asked him why he didn’t live with them; he said he chose to stay because of his ‘true love’. His first wife has since remarried.

Ben said that he was not in – love with his ex-wife, he said they both got drunk and in the process he got his ex – wife pregnant and they bore a daughter. He said while his ex – wife is really not a bad person, they can’t seem to get along well especially ex – wife is a bit of a nagger. When their eldest was only a year old ex – wife left for Canada and made a promise to get them as well. Ben is the first to admit that ex – wife is a smart woman, and a hardworking one so when their daughter was about 7 years old they got their papers from Canadian embassy granting them permit to live in Canada with ex –wife who at that time was still his legal wife.

However, in the past few years Ben met another whom he had an affair with. Ben said he was contemplating separating with his wife then so that he can be with Lot the woman he is having an affair with. But Ben admits while he loves Lot he was racked with guilt for his wife. Nevertheless, she got Lot pregnant and knows that she has to do something about it.

Ben made a decision he will leave his wife so that he can be with Lot. But Lot wants Ben to talk with her father first, who has never liked Ben. So Ben and Lot’s father met. During that meeting Ben told his Lot’s father that he has decided to talk to his wife so that can properly separate and that he wish to marry Lot and take responsibility for the child. Should Lot and his father decides that they should not be married, he will still take responsibility of the child and give part of his salary from his job with Max’s Restaurant to provide for his child with Lot. The father was very amiable during that meeting, to which Lot was absent, and requested for Ben to give them a week to decide. And during that week, he told Ben not to see Lot because he doesn’t want her daughter to be confused and wants her to decide properly whether she wants to be with Ben or not. He told Ben that he would personally get in touch with him at his work. Ben said at that time they still don’t own mobile phones.

A week passed and he didn’t hear from Lot and her father. Halfway thru the second week he went to Lot’s house and he was met by Lot’s father who told him that Lot doesn’t want anything to do with him. He pursued Lot several times but Lot never once went out to meet him. Until the barangay told him that should he visit the place again he will be charged. Soon he found out that Lot’s family moved to a different house. He doesn’t know where.

But to be fair with his wife, he told her the truth and told her that he will not be joining them in Canada. So when his daughter left he explained to her why he was staying and told him she might have a sibling soon. That was 17 years ago last year and he has never heard of Lot again. He said he has been searching for on Facebook to no avail. He doesn’t even know whether their child survived or not and if it did he doesn’t know whether it is a boy or a girl.

Ben said he has never been with anybody else since then.

I just recently wrote about the Traditional Sutra Amulet (TSA) when I encountered Ben and was told about this story. My girl – friend who was with me at that time got really affected and told me we should do something for Ben. I decided to give Ben a TSA, and my friend who is a believer and just had a miracle from her Vajrapani Ruel pitched for half of the cost of donation for the TSA.

We got Ben’s number and he got ours. But of course we didn’t hear from each other again.

And so the past week I was feeling down and I got a call from Ben. To be honest, it’s been almost a year and I don’t remember him anymore. But Ben would help lift me out of that feeling of being down and he reminded me why I write about these things.

You see after 17 years Ben met Lot again and after 17 years he met his son! They now live together and will be married soon. So what happened?

After meeting Ben, Lot’s father went home fuming mad and told Lot to forget about Ben because Ben told him that while he will support their child financially, he will not acknowledge the child because he is married and is scheduled to leave for Canada! Lot was really heartbroken with this piece of news and so when her father suggested that she goes live with her uncle (his father’s brother) and auntie in Novaliches (a place quite far from where they live which is in Rizal) she agreed. That’s where she gave birth and soon his parents also moved to Novaliches and they lived next door to the Uncle and Auntie who took care of her while she was pregnant.

She didn’t know that Ben went looking for him but he was constantly sent away but his parents and that finally they threatened to charge him for continuously badgering them. When Lot’s son was 13 years old Lot’s father has a heart attack and before he died he told Lot that should he see Ben again she should talk to him. Lot said why should he when he has abandoned them, but Lot’s father just said that maybe Ben has repented, although Lot thought this was curious she just decided that this was all just musings of a dying old man.

When Lot’s son was 15 years old, he told his mom that he wants to meet his dad, but Lot told him to just leave Ben alone and that he has nothing to do with their life. She even refused to give him Ben’s name.

Last week of October 2016 Lot’s son had an idea to make a Facebook account for his mother, and he thought he’d put in the relationship status ‘Complicated’ in the hope that when Ben sees his mom’s account he will contact them. Little did he know that Ben would from time to time search for Lot on FB and he did see the account made by their son for Lot.

When their son saw Ben trying to add and chat Lot, he had a gut feel that this could be his father and saw he told his mom about the FB account he made for her and about the man name Ben who was trying to get in touch with her. Lot got so angry, angry like she has never been before. And so their son knew then Ben was his father. But Lot also asked for the details of the FB and he soon chatted with Ben.

She decided to meet Ben first and when Ben called her ‘Balot’ again, a pet name Ben created for Lot, she knew that she was still in love with Ben. And the rest is history. Ben said he is now trying to establish a good relationship with his son. He said it was not easy but they’re both trying. Ben and Lot will get married soon. Ben said he forgot about the TSA and never attributed everything to it. But when cleaning the house, Lot saw and asked him about the TSA, and he told him the story. They realized that their son put up the FB account a week after Ben got the TSA. And so that sealed their belief that it was really because of the TSA that they got back together. Ben wants me to be their godfather on their wedding. I felt I was too young to be their godfather but I still said yes. It’s a miracle that they got back 17 years after and my girl – friend who is going to be a godmother will want to witness the wedding that is 17 years in the making.

With this story there is another miracle, and that is the miracle of Ben sharing with me their story at this time. It helped me to stay on track to continue writing what I write. Will I stop on the one thousandth post? I don’t know but in the meantime Ben and Lot’s story is one of the reasons why I write and share these things.

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Experiencing Some Bad Luck or Feeling Down? Audit What You Are Watching, or Reading!

Published Abril 20, 2017 by jptan2012

It has been about 3 or 4 years since I’ve stopped watching TV. Why did I stop watching TV? The reason is quite simple; a lot of the things that I see on TV are affecting me negatively.

Whether we admit it or not, what we see or hear or read affects us. It may have an effect on us mentally, psychologically, or emotionally. But the truth is it affects our chi or aura also, and being exposed to a lot of negative things on TV, even the one that are supposedly or allegedly funny will definitely affect us.

I still watch movies, and I do read a lot, but we have more control on what type of movies we watch, or books that we read. It is not as easy as to get ‘hypnotized’ to continue watching or reading, as it is on TV.

This has never been more apparent than with a former colleague. She would regularly talk to us about the dramas she watches on TV, and then I also notice that she would regularly complain about the drama that is happening in her life. When she found out that I studied Feng Shui she asked me what she should do to improve her life.

For some reason, I just thought that I should tell her to stop watching drama and horror movies, and any other seemingly harmless shows but affects us more than we realized. Surprisingly she heeded my advice and months later she told me that her life has greatly improved.

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